I’m not ready to make nice,
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and I don’t have time
to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right,
I probably wouldn’t if I could
’cause I’m mad as hell, can’t bring myself to do
what it is you think I should
Yesterday I got a phone call from my mom’s man-friend, who I have never met and with whom I have never spoken before. He said that mom has tried to call me but couldn’t get through and so she had asked him to try to call to see if there’s something wrong with our phone line.
Now, that in itself is a lie. How do I know? Because we’ve been at home all weekend, and there haven’t been any problems with our phone, and she hasn’t called. Not to mention that I have heard it before.
He tried to tell me that silence doesn’t solve anything and that sooner or later we have to talk things through – as if I didn’t know that already – and I told him that I know that but at the time being I have to focus on other things in my life, these are some of the most important weeks in my life and I can’t waste any energy on her right now. When I’m ready, I will deal with her, but not now.
Anyway, I told him that if she must reach me she can send me an email and then I’ll decide whether or not I want to talk with her.
So she did.
She told me that her aunt died, and asked if I want to join in on a flower garland.
She told me that she misses me.
She told me that she wants to give me something special for my graduation so she wants to know which date I graduate.
and now I have to decide whether or not I want to talk with her.
Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I’m not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I’m still waiting