… resto immobile qui senza parlare
non ci riesco a staccarmi da te
e cancellare tutte le pagine con la tua immagine
e vivere come se non fosse stato mai amore
e poi e poi e poi vivere come se non fosse stato mai amore…
Oct 08
mia campania
7 Responses to “mia campania”
See also:
- 02/04/2012 - now go love everything
- 17/03/2012 - per sempre
- 02/03/2012 - angels
- 12/02/2012 - dream until your dreams come true
- 24/01/2012 - told you so
annika,
Il tempo guarisce tutti i mali!
What a beautiful place!!! Impossibile di non amarlo.
Annika,
I hope you don’t mind, I put a link to your blog on my blog
There’s something deep and moving in this longing for Italy of yours.
I’ve been reading most of your posts trying to understand what it is about Italy that I take for granted and maybe don’t value precious enough and that, on the contrary, you find so “yearnful”, what it is that makes you believe that you’d be happier here and makes you dream of making this step that will change your life forever.
I’ve developed an opinion of my own about this and even though it is an unrequested opinion I thought that maybe you could find one word or two worth listening to.
For those who live in Italy, such as myself, Italy is nowhere near that dreamland whose image you hold so dear inside in your gloomy northern winters. It’s true that there are postcard places as the one you describe here, it’s true that the weather is not as inclement as it is in Scandinavia and it’s true that there’s probably more art and more flipflops than in Sweden.
But unless you have the sheer luck of being able to live a Grace Kelly-like life in a hideaway mansion on the Amalfi coast (something that unless there are a few things about you we don’t know seems extremely unlikely), you’ll end up living an everyday life where the things that you rate so precious today will end up being taken for granted, where you’ll end up hating all those byzantinisms that poison life down here, where you’ll have to struggle to make ends meet, where you’ll be hit by how things are different on holiday, etc etc etc. – all things you’re all too aware of.
I guess I’m not the first one to tell something of this kind to you and I’m all for fulfilling one’s dreams and I think that you’ve got the right of fulfilling yours.
But if I get it right, and aware that this may get very personal and you might just send me packing, I think that what you say about Italy says a lot more about YOU and how you relate to your life, that it does about Italy.
I think you should live your life as fully as possible in Gävle (I googlemapped it), with the intensity it deserves, and not in that frame of mind that brings you to think that you’re just in the antechamber of life and that real life is somewhere else “if I only made up my mind to go fetch it”.
JAP, I wish I could explain it. The thing is that I don’t want the eternal vacation, I just want my everyday life to be there. I am perfectly satisfied with my life on all accounts except location. Italy is right for me on such a deep level, it gives me a feeling of belonging and being at home which is probably crazy. I am not unhappy here, not in the least (climate apart), but I am in the wrong place. Maybe not the wrong place right now, I suppose there are things I have to do here first, but this is not where my soul belongs.
I agree with you Annika. I have the same feeling as you. I know I belong in Florence but I am happy here with my family but I know I need to be there. You will get there, your heart will bring you there. Make a vision board and visualize every day. You never know what life has in store for us.
bacio!
I know my soul doesn’t belong in Italy…..maybe I should try Gävle….