So it seems that I may have my thing after all, just when I had just about given up on it.
The burning question is: Do I want it?
Of course I want it. If you knew what it is you’d know how much I want it, how much I have wanted it and for how long. It is written in my stars that I shall have it.
But do I want it now?
The thought petrifies me. Talking about crossroads, this is probably the biggest and most important one I’ve ever been at. I will go down this road eventually, but is this the right time?
Do I want it now?
To do it now is probably just as reasonable as it was to have a child at 20 and get married at 21, we had NO money and boy was it a struggle and nobody believed in us – but hey, look at us now ten years down the road, it worked out pretty fine if I may say so myself.
I’m sure it would be wiser to wait a few years, get thoroughly prepared and build up funds to help in the beginning.
But do I want to wait?
Part of me says that it’s best to strike while the iron is hot. Part of me says that there’s no rush, things are good the way they are. Comfortable. Safe. I’ve never been one to play it safe, but there’s been so much drama in my life and I am tired. Tired, and ever so slightly bored. I can’t stay too long in one place, however comfortable it may be. How long is too long? Is this long enough, am I really ready for a change?
If you knew what it is, I’m certain you’d tell me to go ahead. You’d tell me how this has been something I’ve wanted for such a long time and how I’d regret not doing it. You’d tell me to dare the leap, take the chance, throw myself out in open air and fly.
We can all fly if we just forget how to land, but at this moment the possible crash terrifies me.
Act? Wait? God! I’m scared. I don’t know what to do, but I have to make a decision.
Whenever I’m at a crossroads like you are, Annika, I just remember this quote:
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.
Annika, if you are sure that we, your faithful readers and friends throught all these years, would encourage you to throw yourself in the thing and go for it with all you have, then do it. What would you advice to yourself if you were your friend?
Good luck!
DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You wont regret it.
I got a “note from the universe” in my e-mail this morning, and it made me think of your post…here it is:
Sometimes when you’re ready for a change, Anait, and you kind of know it but won’t admit it, when it comes, not only are you surprised, but it hurts.
Yeah, I know that doesn’t help much, unless you remember the “ready” part. Because there is simply no change that might ever transpire in time and space that happens before you’re fully able to use it for your own growth and glory.
Love watching you create,
The Universe
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