revenge

Annika

I want to say thank you to my brain.

I haven’t always used it wisely. I haven’t always used it fully.
I have occasionally treated it badly, giving it insufficient nutrition and inadequate stimulation.

Yet, now that I choose to put it to use again, I find that not only is it still working, but it holds a variety of knowledge that I can barely remember learning.

I was a smart kid with an overactive brain. I started reading extremely early and read a lot. Learned a lot.
I was going to be a ballet dancer, a veterinarian, a doctor. I planned to become a journalist, a performance artist, an author.

Time and people hammered me down. Smart kids are never popular.
I wanted so badly to become one of them, that I purposedly became an underachieving student.

Many years have passed, and as it turns out they aren’t wildly successful as adults. They, who peaked in their early teens, are no longer people I look up to.

It is the revenge of the nerds. The bullied bookworms of yesterday are today’s prominent, successful people.
It is time to step up and be who I originally was meant to be.
It is time to release my inner geek once and for all.

I am thankful for my brain. I am so thankful that it has stood by me through all these years and that it seems to be very forgiving for how I have treated it. I am thankful that it seems to still be working, that it’s not too late to learn things now and that the things I couldn’t help but learn in school aren’t long gone.

I am never going to become a prima ballerina,
but nobody can stop me from writing.

4 Responses to “revenge”

1. Mary Says:
   August 11th, 2009 at 08:22

   Brava!

2. Em Says:
   August 12th, 2009 at 16:44

   YES! you put it so well that “they peaked” during those teenage years. I like to think we’re still travelling uphill. I’ll peak when I’m dead.

3. Annika Says:
   August 12th, 2009 at 16:51

   You and me both, Em!

4. janie Says:
   August 14th, 2009 at 14:06

   You go girl!