Posts under ‘fate’

the thing

Two years and ten months ago, I wanted a thing. I almost had it, but made a grown-up decision for once and decided to decline the offer so that my husband could go to school and get the education he wanted. We said to each other that if it’s meant to be, if the thing was […]

August break 8/8

I have an idea that some men are born out of their due place. Accident has cast them amid certain surroundings, but they have always a nostalgia for a home they know not. They are strangers in their birthplace, and the leafy lanes they have known from childhood or the populous streets in which they […]

somewhere I belong

Until today, I hadn’t mowed a lawn in 12 years or so. I had forgotten how much work it is. I like it here. Slowly we are turning this house into a home, and it is calm yet filled with life in a way the apartment never was. This is a place to live, not […]


When I look at photos from when I grew up, I can’t help but notice that from the age of 7  I never looked very happy. I was a troubled child with horrible clothes, and in the photos I look like an uptight, pursed-lips old woman in a child’s body. There is one exception though. It was […]

all roads lead to…

If you ask me, Annika, I’d say the main thing to keeping the main thing the main thing, is reminding yourself as often as you can of where the most joy will come from. Ain’t no thing -The Universe The other night I had two dreams, both involving water and too small boats. In one, […]

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